I always put up a front for everyone. Everyone thinks that i am always happy but in all reality, im not. I always but im always not. Its a front i but up for everyone not to ask me, “Hey are you okay?” every single damn day. I haven’t been happy for so long. Its been about 4 years now. When i moved back to a different school, when i had to remake friends and not eve fit into school. When i got expelled for something so stupid and having to make it up until my senor year. High School was hell for me, and im still recovering from that. I mean from now i have getting to this happiness that everyone wants me to be at but its taking time. 

Everyone always wants to know why im angry. Well reason for that is because of all this depression that i have to deal with. It just comes and goes as it pleases and i don’t know why. I mean dont get me wrong i am happy at the moment. I have a wonderfull girlfriend that i have been dating for 9 months, and she has shown me that you can always be happy no matter what life throws at you. I also have wonder full friends that i can always talk to about anything now. before i never used to have that. Its just good to have all of these options now. well i guess this is all for now…